We humans forget our nature and nurture. We are so caught in our present life and experience we forget how our minds work. We have nature which provides patterns for our physical and emotional well being. And we have nurture which patterns much of our spiritual being.

Our spiritual being..

the view that spirit is a prime element of reality. This is a wide and varied subject of life. So wide and varied, we in our fellowship will have as many answers to what spiritual is as there are members of our fellowship.

We humans from some time back in the dark of history has fused our imaginations and beliefs and drawn up all manner of creations to cover the meaning of our lives. From simple procreation to an affinity with Nature, and a God of our own understanding. And for many the purpose of life is beyond our mortal now, that we in some way go beyond this life into something else, that our purpose is a greater journey than the one we have already.

I don’t know why after a meeting just a few hours back, I went with some other fellows for some coffee and we ended up in deep debate. As is classic for us in our fellowship, we tend to dissect and pull apart anything connected to belief and the beyond, and for many in our fellowship, the notion of a real God and higher power is integral to continued well being.

I have no argument with any belief which enables we humans to function and make sense our world and live to the good. In fact any belief is better than the insanity we experience before our recovery from addiction and ego driven insanity.

And anything which helps those in recovery understand that their illness is not a self inflicted disease, then we are helping and not hindering progress to a worthy life. The same is true for those with any addiction picked up along the way. Addiction is a disease of the mind, and a disease is not actually something we chose to have, its something when we know it, we prefer to keep in recovery and not active and chronic.

For many the guilt and shame of addiction kills them as they battle with their willpower. Prejudice causes more deaths than any other cause when it comes to addiction, for prejudice is ignorance.

And when I find our Prime Minister and his cabinet colleagues set on a course of higher self accountability, especially with legalised addictions like smoking and drinking, then offer their prejudice to take away recovery treatments and palliative care for state sponsored addictions, there is something quite wrong in their thinking and doing.

Even our most gifted politicians and exponents of living, they act with prejudice against those afflicted with addictions and don’t see their thinking errors as prejudice and ignorance clouds their narrow judgment of the human condition. Ego driven fuckers to the last is how it seems to me. Blaming the addict for their consumerism, and their broken living. Now that is prejudice prime and culpable by them.

Anyway we fellows sitting with the heat of the day, watched the world go by. And the world was full of beauty today. We saw our gender preferences walking by and as with any who sit and stare, imagination takes hold.

So we talked of spiritual matters in between our people watching and we talked of what God is or might be, or is not as there were those without their God of choice, and there are the basic types like me, who are happy for any kind of help to keep ourselves well, be it spiritual or imaginary.

What we are able to imagine, what we believe and what our true purpose in living is, in my estimation is to make the best of each day and what we experience, to keep our connections to this reality open and functional as we can. To be aware that we can experience all manner of distortion and still keep a trust inside us to our good nature and making life work as well as it can.

Is this so difficult and so hard. In my case it has been as life can be as miserable can be, as my imagination can grip me, and reality can really be as bad as can be. We are all gifted with emotions and feelings we might enjoy or hold to deepest of sadness, and sometimes we cannot change how we feel. The biggest error of judgment can be we try think our way out of feelings, when time itself is maybe the only answer and our sobriety over time.

When we stop trying to bend life to fit our preferences, when we stop imagining how we might make life turn out, when we stop our nature to force our outlook to our own ends and experience the reality of our encounters, we make a better day for ourselves, for we access truth of reality as it is and as others may view. Or similarly as we know even whole Nations will distort truth and make their outlook the primary source for all to encounter. As we have seen so many times in history, as religious and political doctrines have taught us, reality is certainly easy to bend to the will of mankind. And reality is forever changed in faith and belief.

I guess it’s the fear of endings and mortality which drives our conscious contact with a God of our choosing and letting good conscience drift to the side. For in good conscience I feel able to report, nobody actually knows.

Imagination and leaps of faith and higher powers, things greater than us do actually exist in Nature. We need not apply our own concoctions to the mixture of living.

And spiritual for me, this do it yourself metaphysic is simply making good our connections to now, this present, the ever present, present. And our mystical natures where we examine our faith and our purpose and we argue the case through faith in an after life. Surely its worthy of debate and for us to explore, and at the same time keep our feet firmly on the grounding of life. For without our living and in all good conscience, our metaphysical debates and God like connections have no meaning at all. For we undermine nature and our existence in the process.

Which is why to give up life for a religious difference raises our foolishness to a level beyond anyone’s imagination if we argue our case to its end. And for those who fight and make war for their beliefs in a God of their choosing, the payments made are greater than any life giver would exact, except mankind of course in their insanity and I guess profanity and devaluation of any living persons value and life.

Courage fortitude, convictions, faith and humility, our mixtures and choices so often made in turmoil, it is no wonder we put ourselves in harms way to make a point, and to who do we make it. Simply not to a God, but to others like us. No there is a madness and driven by ego, pride and profanity against our own kind, I find unconscionable. And in good conscience find we humans are worse for our intellect and imagination, when we apply it through our ego and will.

Eternity will help us as generations slide by, and we get better and more homogenised. Till then war and discomfort and all that we are, we need all our human qualities to see our way through our prejudice to the one threat we have in our world. Ourselves.

And maybe some of my fellow travellers left off on the debate, for their defending of their beliefs got in the way. Its easier to believe in something we are not sure of, than often to challenge and enter the debate.

And for many who get confused as we talk, it’s the challenge of faith which makes them get mad and hateful, for there is safety in knowing and believing in God, when reality offers our true contradiction when life is so bad. And what of those humans as history tells us, who live in awful times of horror and never find peace in this life? We cannot somehow accept that their lot was worse, and had no meaning at all.

Is it our human need and desire, to have a system of balance beyond here and now? As we know in our fellowship our times is just lengthened by one day at a time. And why then should we worry about immortal and spiritual at all? It is a difficult part of living to adjust to many truths and sometimes some magic helps us get by. And so why not? I ask in my ignorance as if it were so, because when we get dogmatic and stuck in our ways, we defend old things familiar and hold on when we might let go to our good.

The good of living is in the journey, the spiritual touch of reality is my preference to date. Of God and Nature and a Universe we inhabit, we are blessed indeed when we get a good day. And I know the reverse over years and years, so a good day is a pleasure and joy to be experienced as can be.

We need no dogma, we need no undermining, we need not judge others beliefs if they feel the benefit and don’t harm others in the process. And the sooner we get better with our good conscience the better life will turn out for more of humanity.

So simple its seems yet we driven to extremes and hold others to account for the simplest of differences. it’s a sad reflection that old thinking and distortions place life threatening impacts on much of the world. Old thinking and majestic ego’s of history are indeed emulated and perpetuated over time. And our progress is slow and never to perfection, although perfections drive humanity.

Let go old unhelpful prejudices, if we can determine them, and let our good conscience thrive where it will. And if by happenstance our good living is working then if there is truly a judgment day coming, we need not fear it our be worried about it. Unless we have judged others and hindered their progress to a better living here and now..

And nothing can change history, or give redemption sought from a power that made us, for our distortions and corruptions are of nature and good conscience, not in their defence. So we might do well to behave consistent with and carefully towards our good and a greater good of all, with equality and rarity of prejudice we have accumulated through time and need expunge.

I truly believe redemption is in the day, our way to the good and behaving as we learn our good conscience. And forgiveness is from within, as without does require a power greater than any human and still arguably busy on other projects in their Universe. What else would explain their forgetfulness of us? And of course our human ego..