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May 18 2007

Fear of Life No Fear DonInLondon ‘Day In The Life’

Or was I always a bit fearful or just plain fearful a lot of the time? Odd really to have got to fifty plus and still recollect large amounts of time where life just felt gut wrenchingly awful. Why did I feel like that? I reckon I always was waiting for the worst case scenario. A disaster recovery specialist.

And in truth that’s what I did for many, where they faced ruin I helped them through to success sometimes or certain ruin in one way as another way of life opened up.

Interesting it seems as I write just how much this applies to me now. From the disasters of a career ending to a multitude of jobs which just kept me ticking over and the ending in a place of desolation so complete life had no meaning.

Today

For today or rather yesterday by the time I post this, it has been another day where things have got done, I have been in touch and made connections, helped and supported, been helped and supported. And given a hard word…

The hard word

It has been suggested that I do another service commitment. And if and when I can I will. There are a few things to resolve on the way. And some are health matters and some are to do with my blog, and some to do with not doing too many commitments all over the place and wearing down the resilience I have managed to gain over the last very few weeks.

Resilience, well to an extent it’s a place of respite from the deeps of clinical depression and a place of unusual comfort in the moment, where fear is not my constant companion.

Fear of life has been an issue forever with me and although in many ways I might have appeared ok, I reckon most of it was front. Most of what I did was to look right, and most of what I felt was pain.

Reflections and really tragic in many respects. But it seems to me it has been that way forever. And when I felt safest was when most things went wrong. Or rather safe in secure partnership, or safe in a job, or safe from harms way. Death and break ups led to breakdowns which went on for years.

It’s a bit stark I guess. At the same time to find just a little peace and harmony along the way makes me realise where many live, and many like me have had very hard times.

I feel like some things really have shifted. The reckoning I guess. Where fear, bravery and ego have lessened and more courage faith and confidence abound just for now.

Why has this been so? A lot of things to do with denial, selective truth telling, filters. Not wishing to appear less than, yet knowing I am in some respects. And in the totality the incapacities are far outweighed by access to acceptance of who I am and where I am these days. Acceptance of another rejection or two has made the path more tenuous as time has passed and glad it has happened as life is lived in the day and not tomorrow and not yesterday. Recent years have made good some wisdoms understood for years. And of course realisations of prejudice delivered in recent times has made me accept some more harsher truths of my continued capacity to see through others filters and denials and my own!

Not Complacent!

I am not complacent at all and in an odd way am more vigilant in every respect regarding health and safety of me. And oddly more able to take a few risks and let life happen. Powerlessness in some way has empowered me and my choices and outlook.

Unknowns

I don’t know the answer to these strange times, but you know the truth is I doubt the answers are about staying the same, there is something good in not knowing the answers and changing as I go along. And something much more fun in endeavour and trying. Trying and making life work in the day.

Medical assessment tomorrow

Indeed a medical assessment at the diabetic clinic. And not so much to do with physical, more to do with emotional and mental health around my diseases and conditions. So it will be new ground for me and my new specialist. Its our first meeting.

Open honest and willing.

Best I can do is share where things are. And as this is in the day and over the last few weeks, I hope for some understanding and agreement that I feel better than I have in the last ten years. Albeit just three weeks!

Anyway we shall see. The gremlins of mood change are not so pronounced presently, so we may never know why, but I am hoping it may be longer lasting than times before. Years of sadness have been a real bind. All the more important to keep my journal going. A feelings journal after all is so important to understand balance.

Measurement

Still on my mind, to be able to measure, and control potential was always a bug bear with me. If we can apply measures our science of life is corrupted by our own awareness and limits. We need define mood and other capacities, we cannot accurately measure it. Other than its impact on behaviours and outlook.

Art versus science - Armchair Living and other matters are drifting along and feel the need to expand on these another time and not tonight. Another day..



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After bitter battle, Wolfowitz resigns from World Bank May 18 2007




Departure ends crisis over partner's pay rise - Board accepts outgoing leader 'acted in good faith'

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Paul Wolfowitz lost his battle to hang on to his job as president of the World Bank yesterday, announcing his resignation after a bitter international controversy. However, he managed to extract a statement from the bank's executive board exonerating him for wrongdoing in engineering a generous pay rise for his partner, Shaha Riza, who is on the staff of the bank.

He is to step down at the end of next month, after two years at the bank.

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Rapid rise in global warming is forecast May 18 2007 2007




Lewis Smith, Environment Reporter

The oceans are losing the capacity to soak up rising man-made carbon emissions, which is increasing the rate of global warming by up to 30 per cent, scientists said yesterday.

Researchers have found that the Southern Ocean is absorbing an ever-decreasing proportion of carbon dioxide in the atmosphere. The excess carbon, which cannot be absorbed by the oceans, will remain in the atmosphere and accelerate global warming, they said.

The reduced ability to absorb carbon is thought to be a result of high winds acting on ocean currents bringing deeper waters that already contain high levels of carbon to the surface.

The higher winds are themselves believed to have been caused by climate change due to a combination of changes in the ozone layer and carbon emissions.

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Brown: A quest fulfilled May 18 2007



By Steve Richards

After waiting 13 years to acquire his crown, Gordon Brown is king without a contest. For more than a decade Brown endured phases of misplaced hope when he assumed that Tony Blair was about to stand aside. Even worse, there were periods when he wondered whether he would ever get the top job. Yet when the moment arrives the victory is secured in advance. At yesterday's news conference, Brown's every word and phrase were chosen to address the strange challenge of an easy victory. In his opening sentence he declared he was humbled at the level of support. He was careful not to convey delight or complacently arrogant euphoria.

More self-aware than his forbidding reputation suggests, Brown knows there are dangers even now. He must wait six weeks before he becomes Prime Minister. The media will get restless. Voters might turn away. He repeated several times that he would listen to voters.

A pledge to do so serves two purposes. Stylistically, he needs to show a willingness to engage. More important, "listening" is code for the fact that there will be policy changes once Blair has gone and Brown is Prime Minister. Brown has said he will "listen" to the Army leaders in Iraq. He will "listen" also to nurses, doctors and other health workers. He is unlikely to conclude his consultations with such groups by retaining precisely the same Blairite policies. Several times yesterday he repeated his formula "Education is my passion. The NHS is my immediate priority". Passion and priorities signal change. Brown has not waited so long to be merely an echo of his predecessor.

As he noted yesterday, Brown became a party member as a teenager, a contrast to Blair who became active in his twenties. His early membership served also as a reminder that his uncontested stride towards No 10 is the final stage of a wildly oscillating journey that began before Labour came to power.

Brown was a young political star at Edinburgh University before moving on to dominate the notoriously faction-ridden Scottish Labour Party and become an MP in 1983, the bleakest of Labour's defeats. Soon he was seen as a rising star, plucked out quickly by Neil Kinnock for senior posts and standing in brilliantly as shadow Chancellor when John Smith had his first heart attack. In those days, the late 1980s and early 1990s, many saw Brown as a future leader.

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World Bank head Wolfowitz to quit May 18 2007

Paul Wolfowitz is to quit as president of the World Bank following a bitter promotion row involving his girlfriend.

After lengthy talks with the bank's board, Mr Wolfowitz said he would quit the global lending body on 30 June.

He had faced widespread calls for his resignation after being accused of a conflict of interest over a pay rise given to ex-bank employee Shaha Riza.

The White House, which had backed Mr Wolfowitz, said President George W Bush reluctantly accepted his decision.

Mr Bush's former deputy defence secretary joined the World Bank in 2005.

The bank said it would start an immediate search for his successor.

'Good faith'

In a statement, the board of directors said it accepted Mr Wolfowitz's assurances that he had "acted ethically and in good faith" in the handling of Ms Riza's role and remuneration.

But it acknowledged that a "number of mistakes" had been made.

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May 18 1944: Monte Cassino falls to the Allies

The Polish flag is flying over the ruins of the ancient Italian monastery which has been a symbol of German resistance since the beginning of the year.

Polish troops entered the hill-top abbey this morning, six days after the latest attacks began on this strategic stronghold at the western end of the German defensive position known as the Gustav Line.

British troops have taken control of the fortified town of Cassino at the foot of the "Monastery Hill".

The Allies' hard-fought victory comes four months after their first assault on Monastery Hill failed in January.

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There come to us moments in life when about some things we need no proof from without. A little voice within us tells us, 'You are on the right track, move neither to your left nor right, but keep to the straight and narrow way.

A person falsely claiming to act under divine inspiration or the promptings of the inner voice without having any such, will fare worse than the one falsely claiming to act under the authority of an earthly sovereign. Whereas the latter on being exposed will escape with injury to his body, the former may perish body and soul together.

You have to believe no one but yourselves. You must try to listen to the inner voice, but if you will not have the expression"inner voice", you may use the expression "dictates of reason", which you should obey, and if you will not parade God, I have no doubt you will parade something else which in the end will prove to be God, for, fortunately, there is no one and nothing else but God in this universe.

For me truth is the sovereign principle, which includes numerous other principles. This truth is not only truthfulness in word, but truthfulness in thought also, and not only the relative truth of our conception, but the Absolute Truth, the Eternal Principle, that is God. There are innumerable definitions of God, because His manifestations are innumerable. They overwhelm me with wonder and awe and for a moment stun me.





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