You have the power to tolerate anyone and any situation. But tolerance is not just suffering in silence.
It means going beyond any personal discomfort you may feel, and giving a gift to whom ever you would tolerate. Give your time, attention, understanding, compassion, care - all are gifts, which paradoxically, you also receive in the process of giving.
And, as you do, you will experience your own self esteem and inner strength grow. In this way you can turn tolerance into strength.
Knights of the Round Table and the old myths and legends.. A part of my young life and finding myself transported out of those difficult childhood days and into a world which spoke more to me than reality.
It took a while for me to learn to read and write, some nasty and horrid teacher made me feel so inadequate so early I had no desire to shine in any part of living. I preferred to be anonymous somewhere in the middle, not a target and never really top or bottom of the class. Hiding from a young age in myths and legends where safety came as some story ending to the good was made.
Yet in spite of my keeping a lower profile I thought, I kept working hard and got along. And in the process of living and being more motivated by fear than success, my career went where it felt best and based on what others had in mind rather than any idea what I might do. So for the first time in my adult life it seems possible to make a new living again without the baggage of the past and every experience still in mind. This comes to me after some long and protracted years getting back to some form of emotional well being. Not easy to put ones head in order and with the support of many, I have found some peace at last albeit new to me, its courtesy of fellowship and family which has made possible what was impossible for me alone.
Tranquillity and just being seemed states of mind others always had and I never really understood beyond the theoretical most often. And I lived for those rare moments where peace felt assured. Then today I find after some days a breakthrough, just to go about London and see the sights. And do so with peaceful and careful steps.
It really is good to move along and enjoy the day, sit in a park, watch the world go by and be a part of the atmosphere and living. There is some joy in just being and participating with just our presence and no particular aim in mind. Just being.
I even saw a laid back small animal content and at peace tonight. Odd really maybe I am just seeing the world differently and some weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Fear is less today. Peace and harmony more.
How so? Smiles inside maybe and my insides and my outlook have been gently transformed after many months of inevitable self doubt which comes with depressed states. And a few days like now feel so optimistic.
A gentle wander through the London streets and Parks. And again very gently, was fine. Not being in the constant pain from the neuropathy for a whole day too. So calm has descended for a while. Maybe this may be a possibility? What I want more? Of course I do, to be a part of life and living.
Don’t we all. The stories shared in my meeting tonight were of times past where life had turned pretty bad and then through application and endeavour, lives had been turned around.
How can this be so? In the dark we cannot see a darn thing and we look more often for what is wrong rather than what is right with the world. And as we move out of our fugue states, seeing the world these last few days with fresher outlooks has hope restored for more future and more of life to come. I see a path, and its not big, its not small, merely a path to live and be a part of and have a role to play.
Depression as dark as can be takes away everything and leaves nothing but a desert of desolate times, where positive feelings and more often reality is lost from view. Those times where even harsh and constant dark make way for some black beyond compare. Churchill called it "black dog" a fitting and omnipresence I would liken to chilled and colds times where even air has a weight so great one cannot raise even a glimpse of hope. Dark indeed.
So the contrast this week has taken me somewhat by surprise and wonder what may be happening in this mind of mine. And actually I cannot quite say what is going on other than I hope it continues. Maybe a corner has been turned.
So difficult to let the horrors go and live again? It seems sometimes the lid of Pandora’s box is stuck so tight that nothing can shift, and then like a light blinding almost something shifts and hope emerges.
I feel improved and as I mentioned last night this gentleness and positive air has come about gradually and then like a turn in the weather this week, well maybe I do respond to living and springtime. We are of nature after all and with a more hearty outlook I feel very complete in these moments of now. May it last a while longer.
And this is to the good of all who help. And really actually I have worked hard and resolutely, as has been suggested. To get a life again.
A gift, revealed to me? The Holy Grail resides inside all, not lost to time or myth. The Grail so long sought is there as we find our path to peace. Harmony and constant endeavour make possible an outlook I thought lost forever in a sea so black and deep.
As we may, we can feel every element of life, its good to find some days like these and make worthwhile all hardships along the way. There will be hard times again and this is just as life unfolds, and with experience I know more than ever, it has been worth every step along the way.
Someone said, 'Lads, I think we're going to be executed' April 7 2007
Sailors tell of 'psychological torture'- US offered military action to free 15
Steven Morris and Ewen MacAskill
The British hostages held captive in Iran for a fortnight yesterday told
of the moments they thought they were about to be executed by their captors as the first full account of their ordeal was made public.
The most frightening time was when the 14 men and one woman, Faye Turney, were lined up against a wall, handcuffed and blindfolded. They heard weapons being
cocked and some of them thought they were about to be shot.
Pregnant woman shot dead in parking row April 7 2007
Stewart Tendler, Crime Correspondent
A pregnant woman was shot dead in her hallway yesterday over a parking row between neighbours.
Krystal Hart, 22, was killed as she confronted a gunman who had gone looking
for her boyfriend after an argument outside her home in an area of Battersea, southwest London, dubbed “Nappy Valley” because of its high number of
preteenage children and “café culture” of middle-class, affluent families.
Police raided houses near the murder scene last night. Earlier they said that the killing yesterday morning seemed to have been the culmination of an
escalating dispute between neighbours. Officers have not made any arrests but said they wanted to speak to a white man aged between 30 and 50.
One hour before the shooting of Miss Hart, a former civil servant who was six weeks’ pregnant, her boyfriend had been arguing with a male visitor to the
flat of her downstairs neighbour, Angela Brewer.
How the worst effects of climate change will be felt by the poorest
April 7 2007
By Michael McCarthy and Stephen Castle
Humanity will be divided as never before by climate change, with the world's poor its disproportionate victims, the latest United Nations report on the
coming effects of global warming made clear yesterday.
Existing divisions between rich and poor countries will be sharply exacerbated by the pattern of climate-change impacts in the coming years, predicted in
the study from the UN's Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change (IPCC).
Increased drought, crop failure, disease, extreme weather events and sea level rise are all likely to fall much more heavily on struggling populations in
Africa, Asia and South America than on the rich industrial societies of Europe, North America and Australia - who have done most to cause global warming
through greenhouse gas emissions in the past, and who are best able to afford counter-measures to limit its consequences.
This picture of great inequity and a great climate divide was seized on by aid agencies and environmental pressure groups. "Governments must act now
to stop a catastrophe for the world's poor," said Benedict Southworth, director of the anti-poverty charity the World Development Movement.
"Climate change is no longer just an environmental issue, it is a looming humanitarian catastrophe," said Friends of the Earth International's
climate campaigner, Catherine Pearce.
The IPCC chairman, Rajendra Pachauri, said in launching the report: "The poorest of the poor in the world - and this includes poor people in
prosperous societies - are going to be the worst hit. People who are poor are least able to adapt to climate change."
There come to us moments in life when about some things we need no proof from without. A little voice within us tells us, 'You are on the right track, move neither to your left nor right, but keep to the straight and narrow way.
A person falsely claiming to act under divine inspiration or the promptings of the inner voice without having any such, will fare worse than the one falsely claiming to act under the authority of an earthly sovereign. Whereas the latter on being exposed will escape with injury to his body, the former may perish body and soul together.
You have to believe no one but yourselves. You must try to listen to the inner voice, but if you will not have the expression"inner voice", you may use the expression "dictates of reason", which you should obey, and if you will not parade God, I have no doubt you will parade something else which in the end will prove to be God, for, fortunately, there is no one and nothing else but God in this universe.
For me truth is the sovereign principle, which includes numerous other principles. This truth is not only truthfulness in word, but truthfulness in thought also, and not only the relative truth of our conception, but the Absolute Truth, the Eternal Principle, that is God. There are innumerable definitions of God, because His manifestations are innumerable. They overwhelm me with wonder and awe and for a moment stun me.
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