You have the power to tolerate anyone and any situation. But tolerance is not just suffering in silence.
It means going beyond any personal discomfort you may feel, and giving a gift to whom ever you would tolerate. Give your time, attention, understanding, compassion, care - all are gifts, which paradoxically, you also receive in the process of giving.
And, as you do, you will experience your own self esteem and inner strength grow. In this way you can turn tolerance into strength.
What a day, gas man cometh and goeth without fixing anything. So that’s not new. at least we are jovial about the troublesome boiler I have. Anyway its going at the moment and gratitude from me to the gas people.
A friend of mine has had very sad news about their Mum, who died today. I cannot imagine how they feel, although I have empathy it is a long while since I experienced the death of one of my parents. So I have offered whatever help they may wish, which probably means I am best being available and not wanted. Grief is felt as we know and learn. Its not anything we can learn from a book, only experience is our guide…
Tonight before going out and reading of this sad situation. I was also asked whether I would take some photo’s on a paid basis. The truth in this when connected to fellowship friends, my experience is relationships become strained and unmanageable when we deviate from fellowship. And my future wellbeing is best served as a fellow and not as an instrument or utility.
Resources and Favours for "mates"
Seems to me that when we cultivate our fellowship friends for any other reason than recovery, we are on a slide into anarchy and misunderstanding. I have seen a lot of argument and a lot of heartache, mainly when people make their relationships unequal.
Relationships in AA
Are what they are. Sometimes when we meet new people, and people on the road of recovery nature intervenes and love can blossom where love was lost.
I am no prude and know that relationships in any fellowship are bound to develop, and its truly a matter for those concerned. They may try to be mindful of their length of sober time and their readiness to develop more romantic connections. As with all relationships, as we get more sober, we get more equal and aware of the relative ups and downs we can experience. love however will turn us where it will, and we are most often powerless over who we love. And thanks to Nature and Providence for that too!!
So I am firmly in favour of Nature and Providence. The ultimate test I guess is in our honesty and willingness and our whole being. And this is simply a day by day process. Skilled we may become and share those gifts, equality is a principle, love will level all boundaries
Step twelve tonight:
"12- Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs"
The spiritual awakening!
Is very easy to write about and hard to experience, for it is experience which gives us the key to spiritual.
Spiritual awakening, blimey! What it is, is seeing the day for real, without filters and denials. And if you feel that this is easy, then you are probably very advanced and practised in the art of life, or very deluded!
Being spiritual, is honest open and able to see truth. Live truth and live honestly without recourse to some filtering or denial.
So we can aspire to be quite spiritual and get good at spiritual, and know its purely momentary.
You cannot store it or keep it safe, we live spiritual as best we can.
As with some who find a Guru, the guru can also have off days where they have no spiritual in them. Its situational and conditional on many factors we humans prefer not to be often. That is honest and truthful
So I know I have a way to go personally every single day.
In AA though Step 12
Well we can keep sharing our outlook and be part of helping newcomers in and out of the fellowship. We know that coming into a fellowship is pretty hard and usually at a point of desperation.
I have friends half in and mostly out of AA as well as friends firmly committed to sobriety. And we need remind ourselves that we are powerless over people places and things and when we feel we have power that is ego and not esteem.
So if you feel you need sobriety I may help and offer suggestions. Always in our fellowship its personal choice to keep to sober or leave and usually end up in a very sorry state or dead sooner than need be. This is my experience.
For thirty years, no thirty five years I lost my way. And now I am finding my track once more. So in the cold light of day I find more to do than drink away my troubles or indeed then with drink, I am the trouble and the problem.
And for now that is it. Till later.. Living in the Solution does not change life, it changes me, my attitudes and behaviour. Life goes on and I am part of it.
Mosquito is genetically modified to destroy malaria March 20 2007
Mark Henderson, Science Editor
The fight against malaria could eventually be transformed by releasing into disease-ridden areas genetically modified mosquitoes that cannot transmit the infection.
Scientists in America have engineered a species of mosquito which is resistant to the malaria infection. Its ability to block the infection suggests that it could come to dominate mosquito populations if released into the wild.
The findings offer the strongest suggestion yet that engineering mosquitoes to resist the parasite could help to control a disease that takes up to 2.7 million lives each year, chiefly in Africa. Malaria infects between 300 million and 500 million people each year. Only HIV/ Aids causes more deaths from infectious disease.
Large numbers of GM mosquitoes would be released in areas where malaria is common, where they would interbreed with wild ones. Over several generations, resistance should spread through the mosquito population, so that fewer insects carry malaria. However, this approach would prove controversial with environmental groups, as it would involve supplanting a naturally occurring species with a genetically engineered variant.
Associated Press Tuesday March 20, 2007 Guardian Unlimited
Saddam Hussein's former deputy was hanged before dawn today for the killings of 148 Shia Muslims, an official with the prime minister's office said.
Taha Yassin Ramadan, who was Saddam's vice-president when the regime was ousted four years ago, was the fourth man to be executed for the killings of 148 Shias following a 1982 assassination attempt against the former leader in the city of Dujail.
The official, who witnessed the hanging but spoke on condition of anonymity because an official announcement had not been made, said precautions were taken to prevent a repeat of what happened to Saddam's half brother Barzan Ibrahim, who was decapitated on the gallows. Ramadan was weighed before the hanging and the length of the rope was chosen accordingly, the official said.
The executions have outraged Iraqi Sunnis and caused concern among international human rights groups, which have appealed for Ramadan's life. Ramadan was convicted in November of murder, forced deportation and torture and sentenced to life in prison. A month later, the appeals court said the sentence was too lenient, and returned his case to the high tribunal, demanding he be sentenced to death. The court agreed to turn it to a death sentence.
Four years to the day after US and British troops invaded Iraq, its people are full of fear. Iraqis often have a look of half-suppressed panic in their eyes as they tell how violent death has touched them again and again.
By Patrick Cockburn in Khanaqin, Diyala Province
"I have fled twice in the past year," said Kassim Naji Salaman as he stood beside his petrol tanker outside the town of Khanaqin in central Iraq this weekend. "I and my family used to live in Baghdad but we ran for our lives when my uncle and nephew were killed and we moved into a house in the village of Kanaan in Diyala."
Mr Salaman hoped he and his family, all Sunni, would be safer in a Sunni district. But almost everywhere in Iraq is dangerous. "Militiamen kidnapped my brother Natik, who used to drive this tanker, and forced him into the boot of their car," he continued.
"When they took him out they shot him in the head and left his body beside the road. I am frightened of going back to Kanaan where my family are refugees because the militiamen would kill me as well."
There come to us moments in life when about some things we need no proof from without. A little voice within us tells us, 'You are on the right track, move neither to your left nor right, but keep to the straight and narrow way.
A person falsely claiming to act under divine inspiration or the promptings of the inner voice without having any such, will fare worse than the one falsely claiming to act under the authority of an earthly sovereign. Whereas the latter on being exposed will escape with injury to his body, the former may perish body and soul together.
You have to believe no one but yourselves. You must try to listen to the inner voice, but if you will not have the expression"inner voice", you may use the expression "dictates of reason", which you should obey, and if you will not parade God, I have no doubt you will parade something else which in the end will prove to be God, for, fortunately, there is no one and nothing else but God in this universe.
For me truth is the sovereign principle, which includes numerous other principles. This truth is not only truthfulness in word, but truthfulness in thought also, and not only the relative truth of our conception, but the Absolute Truth, the Eternal Principle, that is God. There are innumerable definitions of God, because His manifestations are innumerable. They overwhelm me with wonder and awe and for a moment stun me.
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